fuck you, mercury tracer.

you left me standing in the sleet tonight. you are unreliable.

uhhhggggg, Hamline.

Today, the other students in my painting class heard public enemy for the first time... and hated it. They got a kick out of "cheeseburger in paradise" though. Damn Jimmy Buffet.

"I AM THE THIRD REVELATION!! I WILL EAT YOU!!!"

best daniel day lewis scene ever.

6:45 a.m. March 21st 2009

Morning Serenade; a reflection
( in the form of text message)

haley
rude as fuck.
Caitlin
holy hell. i am ready to punch her in the effing face.
haley
no shit, momma's taking an audible dump in the bathroom
Caitlin
omg. they are martians. i hate them.
haley
and then came the sleep machine...
caitlin
EFFFFFFFFFF
haley
seriously, fuck them... i am waking up two hours from now just to be loud. they are big fucking smelly martians.
Caitlin
sounds like a plan. we can watch fucking "in bruges" and eat fucking doritos.
haley
ok. get some shut eye.


THERES MORE WHERE THAT CAME FROM.

thursday babble

I think I will go too. Brain fried. yum. leftover rice, vegetable curry, and lean mean salmon fillets. Good looking people kissing on the TV. i think i will eat my Easter treats and have a thought or two. gonna paint the walls around here and fix everything up real nice. i can't decide if it's cold outside or whatever what have you. what will i do what will i say? i have a feeling i have a feeling i have had a feeling something big is going to happen this week. just a feeling. IT's not in the stars, that much is for sure. tomorrow is Friday, so we shall see. Ouija board is calling me, haunt this place and let it be. what kind are you? do you notice somebody like me. i sure would. i think.

amazing.

i honestly could not resist.

Tod Browning's "Freaks"

both fascinating and horrible.

purple and yellow moth

another one of god's creatures that has now made an appearance in my dreams.

a full day

(reverse chronological)
listened to the wind try to blow down my house
post-modern theory over pizza
walked through a blizzard
critiqued resumes for $$$$
painted horrible color charts/loathed painting/college art classes continuously muddy creativity
became obsessed with Marcel Duchamp
obsession with the style of mechanical eroticism
drew my first sketch of " Lady Godiva" piece
called about a job
Hamline taught me what it means to have a sense of "Self"
woke up late

they call them killer whales for a reason

to hear from you rustles up the sediment at high sea. my survival is murky. i am the man without a country. Missing in Action. in my head i float aimlessly high. with a fear of heights and deep water. i guess in the middle is where i should be. by day, i wait with a glaciers patience. at night i speak to whales, and they ask me to forget you right before they go in for the kill. please, don't forget me when im stuck in a great white belly. my organs scattered, a proper funeral at sea. but i'm not all there...you still have something that belongs to me and i will need it someday if you can't hold it properly.

my new favorite.

Plan 9 From Outer Space (1959)
directed-produced-written by Edward D. Wood Jr.
featuring Bela lugosi and vampira

AMAZING
i want to make art this bad.

it's march...

and i am done worrying about how you feel.
bashing my head against the wall over a boy.
how silly, how childish.
i'd pick me. any day.
you picked an ogre.

J.A.N makes me look important.

I love Jessica Ashley Nelson. We have some laughs... she makes me pose.